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last post for tonight(:

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:37:00 -0400

so here i am sitting in my room thinking about how to kill myself like i always do. same old story. same pathetic shit, like im somehow supposed to not cry and be okay even though nothing in my life has been okay but since it isnt something like cancer, its “not that big a deal” like being molested isnt something i dont remember, like be used isnt something i wont forget. like cutting was never a part of me.

i always thought that once my parents knew that i cut and i started seeing therapists and psychiatrists, id be getting better but no.

but im supposed to be okay. im supposed to be fine with have no friends, no one to talk to. im supposed to be fine with wanting to through up after i eat. im supposed to recover from self harm and over dosing, like it doesnt matter if i dont pass out from bleeding or keep the vomit down after i down 30 something pills, but its fine if i dont die, but its fine if i die.

so all i can ever do is cry because if i open up to someone they will only ask me questions to get answers to things they could tell others to make conversation and that’s where mistrust comes in, like i cant even trust myself.

its not like i dont know that all these guys only want me for sex like the word “slut” is tattooed on my forehead and i act like im okay with it, but i know what they want. and they know that i know but that doesnt stop them but i guess i never had anything to give away since in reality im so poor. no one cares and so why should i?

triplethreatjennifer: :’/

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:25:43 -0400

triplethreatjennifer:

:’/

i get so sad sometimes

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:20:38 -0400

i get so sad sometimes

deheartened: ♡♡♡dh♡♡♡

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:15:05 -0400

deheartened:

♡♡♡dh♡♡♡

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flowerbomb-bitch: pale xo

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flowerbomb-bitch:

pale xo

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l-u-n-a-c-y-f-r-i-n-g-e: ❁ on We Heart It -...

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:13:48 -0400

l-u-n-a-c-y-f-r-i-n-g-e:

❁ on We Heart It - http://weheartit.com/entry/54600570/via/lunacyfr1nge

Hearted from: http://deheartened.tumblr.com/post/44722722883

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Vlada Roslyakova at Rick Owens Spring 2008.

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Vlada Roslyakova at Rick Owens Spring 2008.

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